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Friday, February 09, 2007

alright, here's the big day, the day which the o level results are being annouced.

i didnt ponned school today anyway..no point..
was procrastinating, contemplating about it, but i still went.
anyway 8 of 1t24 ppl went to school today. didnt really have actual lessons..
wanted to left school early, but access denied, got into some kind of 'trouble'
dont know what will happen on monday..
haiz.

i am in a very lousy mood now. damn it man. i dont know what happen.
i've got a SIX for one of the compulsory subjects, which happens to be my english.
a SIX. A BIG DISGUSTING SIX there.
it just screws up everything.
i feel so damn stupid, i am such an asshole.
IF ONLY..
looking at others around me, i am feeling very dumb, very very lousy.
i didnt expect this grade...
totally dissappointed.

people asks: what's ur l1r5?
they look at YOUR overall mark.
and that one thing. ruined all.
regardless of the other As you get,
the english subject itself had taken nearly half of your l1r5.
can you imagine that?
like what my dad had said, just that one spot which had ruined a nice pretty white shirt.
all attention will be given to the spot and not the shirt.
sorry to those who are reading this post now, reading all my laments and all..

cry girl cos you are gonna feel better after this.
not feeling any much better.
not tears of sadness nor is it tears of happiness. it just remains inside of it.
all swirled together.
thanks to those who comforted me.
to those who stood by me.

nic, you are a big boy, you shouldnt be crying. cause i believed that you had done your best. anyway there's always me for you to laugh at.
and you got half of what i had gotten =/

i did a very silly thing. i thought i had gotten a 9 when i took my results..but after that when i see that six there. i've knew. i abit go look at the no. of subjects graded 6 or better. lol. gives me false hopes. haiz.

i could have gotten better.
mrs soh whacked my butt for getting an a2 for emath.
i, myself, also DONT believe that i had gotten an a2.
supposingly my niche subject...
however, one unbelievable thing is that i had gotten an a1 for combined humans.
looking at how i always didnt do so well in ss and e-geog during the prelims!
from a c6 to a1!
its, unbelievable. really. its like omg-ness.
totally love ms tan and mr tan.
thanks to joshua too. =)
well well, also quite happy with my chem.
thanks to mrs hoo :)
but i didnt really do as well for bio, oh wells.
IF ONLY MY LIT IN EL can replace EL. my life would be happier.
wth la. my lit is sooo much better than el. IRONIC.
i think i did really badly for my fnn theory paper since my coursework had gotten an a1, and overall results became a b3.. lol..
didnt study at all for theory. oh wells. wasted. wasted.
i shouldnt even have taken fnn.

ohwell oh well ohwell.
went out to eat with my friends and hang-ed ard orchard after the results.
but didnt really stayed up long..
mei lost her wallet. and i am like stoned. the others are quite satisfied, at least they managed to get into the course they had wanted. some didnt do as well either. some did well.
i miss no1. why are u in UK now?
and i saw quite a few cj ppl there. and ryan! lol..
oh, anyway, am quite glad that our cohort had done overall better than the cohort last yr =)
the percentage has gone up alot! :) 97 point something that for something? haha..

however, some of my friends might be joining me in cj too.
i've also heard that i can apply to other jcs, just that i had to retake my english.
i dont know which route should i take.
i kind of had choose CJ...
thinking of how i had rejected the idea of being in CJ last yr... i was a complete fool. complacency. haha, no bias p.o.w. now.

haiz.